New doctors, new activities

Well, I’ve gotten off the Seroquel at last. Once I fell asleep at the wheel in the middle of the day it was kinda PASSED time to get the meds changed.

So, I got a new psychiatrist and he made me change therapist to someone more local and available and now I have seen both of them. I LOVE IT! My new therapist is like what I had always imagined. She’s giving input, making suggestions, EXPLAINING things. I learned more between her and my new pdoc than I had learned from ANYONE I had talked to since being hospitalized.

She suggested several things for me to do and among  them was research Mood Stabilizers. MAN! If I didn’t know better I now would have been led to believe that several anti-psychotics are mood stabilizers. Come on. Just because a Bipolar patient takes a medication for their Bipolar, it doesn’t make that medication a mood stabilizer. I’ll keep researching for a good list. If I find one, I’ll post here, if I don’t… I’ll make one here.

I was irritated about not being able to stick with mood charts so I came up with my own solution. I try to use a Franklin-Covey organizer and it has this little bookmark thing which you always put to the current day. It is supposed to contain this thing called a Compass Card which is supposed to help you stay focused on goals. I’m no good at using the card, so instead I now have a Mood chart in it’s place. It is a SERRIOUSLY cut down versions, but hey, it does the job and it can serve as a r reminder for me to put additional detail in a proper mood chart. I’ll upload so if anyone wants it, they can have it. I even made cutting guides for it to fit nicely into the Classic sized bookmark thing.

Meds suck… especially when you try to go without

Last month I learned sometimes it is important to mess with your meds. It’s not FUN, but it’s sometimes necessary.

Anyway, I tried not taking my Seroquel yesterday morning because I’ve been getting depressed. I was nice and chipper with a screaming migraine and I’ve been awake ever since. I took my Seroquel last night, but I did not sleep. So, I guess I still need all the junk I’m taking… bowel trouble, vomiting and headaches included.

YUCK!

A favorite from my childhood

Yeah, MS is annoying… but… what elitist crap do you want from Apple

I’ve tried to keep my professional life off this blog, but it’s kinda relevant.

After driving an hour in the driving rain to get to the nearest Apple Store, I arrived at the  store at 2:30 to find them shut with all the staff locked inside and loads of people lined up for their iPhones. I signaled to the staff to come to the glass doors to talk to me. After a few stupid looks, two of the “Geniuses” walked to the door. I told them I didn’t care about the iPhone and just wanted to buy a power supply for my iBook. The response, “we aren’t opening until 6:00″.

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I’m sick of driving across town to get to a special shop to buy a special part for my BASIC, NOT SPECIAL Apple notebook!

Music soothes the savage beast…

No wonder I’m so obsessed with music, in my entire life it is the one and only thing that has always been there for me. Until a week ago I never would have thought music could have the ability to protect me, but it happened.

SO, having said all that, here is the reason for this post. Just a few weeks ago a friend told me about pandora.com. This site is incredible. I just put in the artist I like and it goes off and finds songs that fit the same profile as the artist I listed. I’m being reminded of artists I had forgotten about and learning of new artists I have never hear and would have never heard if not for this site.

This is the best website I have seen in years. It’s actually useful!